Thursday, August 21, 2008

Everything about me hates every inch of you equally

I hate you truly. Truly I do.
Everything about me hates everything about you.
The flick of my wrist hates you.
The way I hold my pencil hates you.
The sound made by my tiniest bones were they trapped
in the jaws of a moray eel hates you.
Each corpuscle singing in its capillary hates you.
Every piece of hair on my body hates you, and my
pores hate you even more

Look out! Fore! I hate you.

The blue-green jewel of sock lint I’m digging
from under by third toenail, left foot, hates you.
The history of this keychain hates you.
My sigh in the background as you tell me about random things
hates you.
The goldfish of my uncles step niece hates you.
My aorta hates you. Also my ancestors.

A closed window is both a closed window and an obvious
symbol of how I hate you.

My voice curt as a hairshirt: hate.
My hesitation when you invite me for a drive: hate.
My pleasant “good morning”: hate.
You know how when I’m sleepy I nuzzle my head
under your arm? Hate.
The whites of my target-eyes articulate hate. My wit
practices it.
My hard green pillow that i sleep with hates you.

Layers of hate, a parfait.

Hours after our latest row, brandishing the sharp glee of hate,
I dissect you cell by cell, so that I might hate each one
individually and at leisure.
My lungs, duplicitous twins, expand with the utter validity
of my hate, which can never have enough of you,
Breathlessly, like two idealists in a broken submarine.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Cheers to you, beautiful liar

Your words and deeds,
they contradict.
You hypocrite.
You liar.
But which is false?
And which is true?
What you say?
Or what you do?

I took you at your action
instead of at your word.
But the truth was what you said.
The lie was what you did.

I didn't know it worked that way.
I thought a lie was what you say.
Or maybe neither one is true;
deception in both "say" and "do".

This is what i've become

My heart rate keeps slowing
As the clock’s hands keep going

My mind is on you-
But you’re nowhere to be found

Trying not to think about you-
Because you’re nowhere to be found

You’ve broken another promise;
I stopping thinking of what you’ve said.
I’ll just continue to busy myself,
While trying keep you out of my head.

My mind slowly reels back,
Of time is what I’m starting to lose track-

So until you decide,
I’ll sit here and lie

Telling myself that you’re worth the wait.

My mind starts to shut down,
And I feel myself kiss the ground.

You’re the one who killed me;
There’s no way to deny my strife-
I was perfectly fine,
Until you came and changed my life.

My mind is now off-
Blackness surrounds me like a void.
My mind aches for relief,
My life isn’t something that can be toyed.